I try to fix everything, it crumbles down instead. Both sides refuse to settle peacefully, instead leave me hanging in mid air. I feel so confused and lost, will someone lead the way? Crying for help yet receiving none, another burden on my shoulder. Torn between two sides, both dearest to me. Now what do I do, besides pretending everything is fine. Or pretend everything is just a lie? And move forward to a march. Or just sleep on and forget everything that is involved, and stay far far away from what is hurting me most.